So Anyone remember the old boy bands?!

               I was in the car not to long ago picking up my foster sister/daughter, and i was listening to the Blink 182 I miss you Pandora radio station. And what comes on Untitled by Simple Plan, wow havent herd them in a long time! But than it made me think of Good Charlotte and the boy boy bands like 98 degrees, N'Sync and of course Backstreet Boys! Wow definitely took me back in time i might only be 22 but it was a long time ago since ive really listened to all those bands!

              This Is a Sad song and music video and it hits home because i have always been depressed, and not known what to do or why i was alive. "I cant remember how. I cant remember why im lying here tonight. And i cant stand the pain and i cant make it go away. No i can stand the pain."
This was me in pain all the time and i always just lied in my bed thinking of what would happen if i just disappeared. What would happen if i just took something to numb the pain! it was hard growing up but i think thats for everyone just some have it worst than others.

The pain i felt was brutal

 I was nothing but numb

 I dont know how i made it

But im here a little lost still trying to find out where i belong

Trying to see how my life is important

Trying to find out what my purpose is

Im living life day by day

Not looking forward to the future 

Just looking at the present 

Each day i live and i find out something new

I dont know how im making it 

But i guess i do belong here

Right here on this planet 

But i dont get why im still going through my my depression

Still a little numb 

The pain im feeling is real

Old songs making me think of my past

But im still here Thinking Breathing and Feeling