It's 4/8/15 11:50P.M. What to Say?!

                 Don't know what i can and can not say in my blog! But i will say is today i met with my new psychologist and hopefully now i can just talk to someone. Give you you a bit of a background with me and psychologists, psychiatrists and therapists. My background sucks i was screwed over when i was in high school my therapist than was a female and she literally did not care about what i was going through cause she not only told my mom but my sister. (now my sister is younger than me) she blew my hole trust with her, i told her one thing and she ended up telling the world!

               Now last July/August i got a new therapist ad he was great until i ended up in the hospital. Than it all went down hill from there. The two Questions he would ask:
                    1) "Are you suicidal"?
                    2) "Do you have a plan"?

Of course i would answer:

                    1) "Yes"!

                    2) "Yes"!

               All i wanted was to talk to my therapist, and i wasn't thinking when i answered those two question because guess why? he would call his supervisor and than it would tick me off and i would leave. But than cops would show up at my door to see if i was ok. Oh did i mention that they would tell me i should go back to the hospital. Now the second to last time i seen my therapist he called his supervisor someone new like always. Than she was telling me you need to go to the hospital, and of course i said NO if you want me there youd have to handcuff me or sedate me! And to top it off they said i had to attend group in order to see him. HAHAHAHA! Group doesnt help me. I told my therapist the 2nt to last time i seen him "next week im going to tell you everything is fine" he said "Ok". Guess what now! The last week i saw him he told me i have to go to a higher level of care before i go back to see him. Oh well Now i have another therapist i have a Psychologist. 

          My 2nd post trust me it will get better! just didn;t know what to say so i told you a little about whats been going on! now it's way past my bed time have to get up at 530 to wake up my foster daughter/sister. Good night world may be who ever reads this wont be shy to ask anything they would like an answer to. I always been told i give great advice! Please dont be shy and hopefully you keep reading!